So I am going in today to talk to the surgeon about the tummy tuck.
I do not do well with doctors. They make me nervous, and I tend to clam up and just revert to “yes” and “no” and wait until I can get the heck out of there.
Now… mostly that’s because I always feel hugely judged when I am at the doctor. I only go for annual checkups, and so I am usually just sitting there waiting for the doctor to tell me why I am WRONG WRONG WRONG and should be punished and humiliated for not taking care of myself properly.
This hasn’t actually happened in a long, long time… but the expectation is still there.
But… in this case, I am not going to the doctor for health related purposes. This guy is running a service business. It’s in his best interest to be nice and make me like him (and, if not, then I certainly will go elsewhere)… So I think this will likely be a very different experience than going to a regular doctor.
But I still need to make sure I talk. I need to communicate what I am looking for, what my needs and desires are (also not something I am good at). I must force myself to ask, ask, ask questions and provide full, complete, and honest answers to questions asked of me.
This isn’t going to be easy… but I think I can do it.