I think I mentioned that I bought a Living Social coupon for a class in fused glass.
I used it on Saturday…
It was… fine. The process of fusing glass might have been more interesting to me if I liked things like making mosaics or whatnot. Because basically it’s a process of getting a bunch of pieces of glass and arranging them. Then – it gets put in a kiln three times and comes out as a little disk after a week.
So Glass fusing is not so much going to be my thing.
The glassworks was interesting and I would really like to learn some of the more “hands on” stuff… you know – with the fire
I have come up with what I think is a cunning plan for my interest in art… Jewelry.
I am still looking at this whole “connecting to the mysterious driving force behind the universe” thing. I’m going to write more about that later, but one of the things I want to have in my life is more shiny rocks. I really like shiny rocks.
And what’s a great way to have more shiny rocks in your life?
Additionally, I know that I can’t really do drawing or sketching as my art outlet… One of my sisters likes to draw and paint. She suffers from SEVERE depression (since she was born – seriously), PTSD from a heinous marriage, and a bad case of the “everyone else is better than me and I sucks”.
I have mentioned my doodling to her, and I can already see her lining up her need to see herself as less-than… she was testing the waters last weekend with a nonchalant “so how’s the drawing going?”.
Now – you can’t know someone for 38 years without reading between the lines… so I made sure to (very truthfully) tell her that I really am just doodling around – not like I am drawing pictures or anything. I am really just making lines and coloring them in… and the next comment was “well maybe one of them will turn into something good”.
Now – this is not an “on purpose” thing she does… she really does have debilitating clinical depression – she REALLY thinks that she’s the worst of everything… and is also INTENSELY competitive – EVERYTHING is a contest – and she ALWAYS sees herself as the loser – because she is incapable of seeing anything of hers as “good”. I wish like all hell she’d get medicated, but she doesn’t believe she has depression – because it’s just “the truth” that “she sucks”.
I have to try most of the time to separate myself from this… it makes me really crazy if I get too deep into the reassurance / counseling / etc cycle… but I can also do my best to not feed the beast… and making drawing or sketching a serious endeavor for me would just be throwing fuel on that fire. (Also, really, truthfully, I DO like to doodle, but I am never going to draw a fabulous picture – it’s not where my skills lie).
SO!… I was thinking that Jewelry making was about as far as I could get away from her painting hobby as I could possibly get! No competition there.
AND I get more shiny rocks in my life.
AND I can go back and work with glass in a more hands on way to make beads for jewelry.
AND I get to work with string / yarn / hemp – which I like – I like fiber crafts like that – but no patience for crochet patterns.
AND, finally, I get more cool jewelry for myself!
So while the class itself was no “home run”… It did inspire me in a new direction that feels like a very good fit for me! Sweet!