I Feel Like I am Focusing on This Too Much
But this whole “no more powdered non-dairy creamer” thing is really a bitch.
Routines are stubborn things, and I desperately want to stick to mine.
I was going to the break room to make a cup of herbal tea and my brain started down the “Well, maybe ONE proper cup of tea with creamer wouldn’t be so bad… just one…”
The “Just One” argument is a slippery slope, my friends. I cannot go there.
I additionally signed up for an online calorie tracker so I could make sure I am eating enough to replace the ridiculous number of calories that went away with my
beloved damned creamer.
This has the added benefit of showing me JUST EXACTLY HOW MANY CALORIES I HAVE LEFT TO EAT THAT I COULD TOTALLY USE TO JUST HAVE THE CREAMER, ALREADY!!!
Why is it that high fructose corn syrup is not, you know, counted as an actual vegetable… it’s made of CORN! Why is it apparently the root of all that is evil in this country (or so the news would have us think).
So between the calorie tracker and the complete lack of being able to have a nice cup of tea, I have pretty much done nothing but sit around obsessing about food, snacks, tea, eating. What I am eating now, what I will be able to eat next, and if I put in all my food for the day, what if there’s some room left over and how am I going to spend those calories because there is TOTALLY 5 pounds of Halloween candy left right now, and I want some of that too.
I hate my brain today.