I am tired and in pain.
I really really really LOVE boxing and Jiu Jitsu. It’s FUN! It engages the body and the brain. It is a FABULOUS workout.
But damn… I just keep on hurting myself. January it was general “kinda creaky”… I started taking glucosamine and – yay! Fixed!
But then February I took a shot to the ribs and THOSE hurt for weeks.
I also did something to my shoulder so THAT was hurting.
I kept going back and going back thinking… OK, at some point I am going to be DONE with these dumbass injuries.
Then in March… it appears I tore my meniscus.
I waited… I gave it time.
It got a bit better, but not “really”.
So I made an appointment with the doctor. HOPING to be told I hurt my knee and here, wear this brace.
Alas.. instead I heard “MRI” and “Arthroscope” and “Surgery”.
Then – in the time between making the appointment and going to the appointment, I was grappling with a girl who is SO strong. She was trying to take me down and she misjudged how light I am… and instead of taking me down, she basically threw me up in the air and slammed me to the mat. Then landed on me like a dead weight. So now my shoulder and ribs hurt again. This may not be the sport for me.
Now – this is no one’s fault but my own.
I bought the damn ticket. I took the ride. I am not looking for anyone to cry for me.
But I am sad that I strongly suspect I am going to have to give this up. If I go to all the trouble of having my knee fixed surgically, I do not think I can, in good conscience, go right back to the thing that hurt it. Maybe the MRI will say no surgery.
And while I could just go to this gym and do the boxing classes… I think I would be sad when it was Jiu Jitsu time and I had to leave.
Sigh. And Double Sigh.
I guess I am on the lookout for another activity I can do to keep fit and motivated – maybe without so much pain.
I’ll have to get over my desire to be seen as a bad-ass, I guess 😉